Hypothetically, if I never see your face again (which is hypothetical because you'll be here forever), I wouldn't mind. "Forever". I finally got what I wanted. How could I ask you for more? You gave me the one thing I wanted.
I think I could live on this for years. Not that it is easy to live this way, but it's simply the best I can arrange being me. And it's not so hard either. Feels incredible to know this finally. I like my life on this delicious fumbling edge. Uncertainty certainly turned out to be so good for me. Am comfortable with the decisions to date. Realizing that I chose everything. Chose to stay. Chose to leave. Lived on certain terms. Made my mistakes. I have not had to live the consequences of decisions others made on my behalf. I'm so sure for once, can you believe it? I could dance caffeinated circles around these decisions.
The loyalty at last feels good.
I think I could live on this for years. Not that it is easy to live this way, but it's simply the best I can arrange being me. And it's not so hard either. Feels incredible to know this finally. I like my life on this delicious fumbling edge. Uncertainty certainly turned out to be so good for me. Am comfortable with the decisions to date. Realizing that I chose everything. Chose to stay. Chose to leave. Lived on certain terms. Made my mistakes. I have not had to live the consequences of decisions others made on my behalf. I'm so sure for once, can you believe it? I could dance caffeinated circles around these decisions.
The loyalty at last feels good.
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